DanCing With 2 QuesTions

There are two questions dancing today. What do I want? and What have I promised?

One leads to the other and back again.

They are different questions that lead to an unspoken, unthought of reality of who I am.

Even though I write in the form of a journal these questions are not specific to me and in some “worlds” not even questions.

We all know that when questions like these arise, they are lures, they are hints, they are our own selves longing for wholeness.
The questions and answers spin and spin, drawing us inward, inward to our simple and most profound experience of being.
What have I promised can be another way of expressing, what is my promise (like when someone says, that girl has promise), what is the essence that I have birthed on this plane that is specific to me but not necessarily only for me?
What do I want can be an expression of self that is secretly or not so secretly yearning for this oneness with self vibration, with joy, with love, with core spark.
Why am I so attracted to my self? I propose it is because the source of my true self contains everything.
I struggled as a child and young person with the emotions that can attach to those questions but have (most of the time) come to see them as good friends, as inner lights that lead me on my individual path.
And like drops joining to make an ocean (ok, that might be a little corny), I am learning to be a part of an even bigger whole (groups of people) without losing my self awareness. That is a different more exposing post but I will leave it here as a breadcrumb (culturally specific reference) for me to follow.